A great man

I'm not a writer. My words won't inspire anyone... they don't inspire me.
I found out a few days ago my father has cancer, liver cancer, a bad form of it, I feel the prognosis is poor but I use all my mental craftiness to remain positive.
I'm selfish I know, my fear my suffering, are not for my father, they're for myself... I don't understand his suffering, i don't try to, if I'm to be honest... I'm consumed by my own fears, my own doubts.
I look at his belly and I see cancer, I see cells growing out of control destroying his body. I want to reach in with my hands and pull them out, I want to scream and blame someone, I want to take it and put it on somebody else because my father my dad doesn't deserve this. He's a great man. Loyal, proud, honest, loving, smart, funny, joyous, whatever other positive description you can find about a person you can associate with my father...
I don't want to see him go, I want to be here I want him to experience my life...

my my my, this is my pain, my fear, my suffering...
I cry, I hurt, why can't I feel for him, why can't my mind grasp what he feels

Medical School

I now begin to pursue my interests in medicine at the Case University School of Medicine. Lets see what happens. 

Kiva.org

I thought I had come up with a completely original idea for my paper, thankfully someone thought of it before I did. Please take a look at www.kiva.org, and see how easy it is to directly help someone on the other side of the world. The more of this we can have, the faster we'll reach the goal of eradicating poverty. By this I mean using technology to facilitate positive interactions between people around the world. Hopefully our generation will see borders fall not because of guns, but because people will no longer see the need to differentiate themselves by arbitrary borders drawn hundreds sometimes thousands of years ago.
I've donated $25.00 each to fisher women in Samoa, and an man who own a ice cream cart in Mexico, imagine the possibilities.

My Portfolio

The Power of Suggestion: A paradigm shift

I wonder more than anything else regarding health: What exactly is a paradigm shift? I think I know now. Not being constrained by the way we've learned to think is a paradigm shift. Nothing we say or do can transcend a paradigm, how we think is what matters.
What will be the new paradigm. THE POWER OF SUGGESTION. MAN AS GOD. WHAT?

ARE YOU READY? Is it time for us as human being to realize that everything we see, everything we do, everything we are, we've created. All the happiness, all the sadness, all the beauty, all the disaster we create each and everyday in or mind. Too crazy or radical, don't read any further....
The CD spins and the music comes out the speakers... the music enters my ears then my brain...then what... then I create the beautiful sound that fills my soul. The CD didn't create it, the speakers don't create it, my ears don't create it, these things just work with energy, even the guitar player isn't the true creator, all he does is pluck strings and have them vibrate in different frequencies. Energy, everything is energy in transition, everything is manipulations of energy, from what we feel, to what we hear, to what we see. The only true creative force is our mind. We are the Creator...
The POWER OF OBSERVATION...
Newtonian mechanics only goes so far, quantum mechanics, previously metaphysics, shows us that just through observation we change the form of energy... through observation... through observing our minds create the reality we live in.
what does this mean.. our minds can change the reality...we can CREATE the world we want. we can create a world free from hunger and malnutrition...
How..a paradigm shift... no longer relying on medicine and money and markets and organizations and government... by knowing and showing the world that each person is a creator and that we can bring to ourselves and world whatever we want...
That's a Paradigm Shift

Med School Interview

So I was asked "What do you think the problem is with the health care system?" in my medical school interview last week. I looked across the table at the 65+ year old gentleman who had just laughed at my desire to become the surgeon general of the united states and earlier noted that "Muslims" keep to them selves here, and I replied "you are." Not quit like that, but I expressed my notion that cynical old doctors (which he was clearly one of) are what continue to maintain the status quo in this country and only when the next generation take control of important positions will things actually change. I guess I won't be going there for medical school. I wonder if I still want to become a doctor? Do I? It feels like I'm jumping into pool of acid, with the direction that things are happening in the medical world. Can I make a difference? Will I come out with the same mindset as I went in? Will $200,000+ in loans change my views regarding public health and helping the under served? Are doctors a possible source for a solution, or is modern medicine and its reliance on high cost intervention and delaying death at any cost (if you can afford it) actually a problem in itself?

I don't know the answer but a potential solution will be to force admissions committees at medical schools to find a true way to assess the the goals and desires of those potentially attending their medical schools. And if they can find good people society should ensure that once finished with medicine these people will be allowed to follow their dreams, rather than being buried under the oppression of debt.

Private Health

Would you ever think that IBM would come up with the most forward thinking and reasonable solution to the health care crisis in this country? If your interested pleas read the executive summary for their health care initiative and see what you think. What's interesting to me is the language they use, compared to what we're used to reading in Public Health. Have we ever read an article that mentions the consumer? Do we even know what the definition of a health consumer is? I really don't think we do. We've talked extensively about public-private partnerships, but our education is so tailored for a career in the public sector that it makes it difficult to bridge the gap from our end. We demonize the private sector as the root of most health problems, and expect to be able to find functional solutions to work together to solve problems.

Regarding the issue that private enterprise somehow devalues or diminishes culture I don't think KFC is the problem in China, and I definitely don't think McDonalds is the problem in America. These companies are a part of Modernity which is an inevitability throughout the world, and fast food and fast lives is a part of this modernity. To argue that this is taking away from a traditional culture is like saying the transition to not eating human flesh took away from cannibalistic cultures. In a post modern world its easy to look reverently at "traditional" culture but we need to understand that those people living in traditional societies look at our lives with even more reverence. Should we deny them what they want? Should we force them to live a "traditional" life because we think its healthier even if they don't want it?
I think there's an inherent fallacy in referring to traditional as somehow better than modern, especially from our perspective, and we need to take care in recognizing this.
With all the horrible fast foods and private companies disregarding our health to make a profit, life expectancy and quality of life indicators have grown steadily in the west, while more traditional societies have stayed stagnant in these indicators. Clearly its a complicated issue that deals with economics, politics, and other issues, but its easy to overlook these statistics when we're constantly bombarded with the negative data in Public health.